Running through my head...

'Running thru my head, runing thru my head...'

Words of a song with those lyrics have been "running thru my head" for the past few days and just now. many things have been runing thru my head and i've been wanting to sort it out, but still figuring out how to process, digest & do stuff.

Someone recently commented that i am a 'bottled up' person. i used to be quite close to this person at one point in life and we've both moved on now, and not so close anymore. when he passed the comment, i felt like laughing coz i've never thot of myself as a 'bottled up' person, ever before. He got me thinking and then i got irritated that he actually would say something like that about me. and then i realized that i have 'grown-up'. Maybe my friend thinks that way coz we aren't that close anymore and i dont tell him stuff. and this got me to appreciate the few people in my life that i am close to and i share things with. another friend told me that i may be 'bottled-up', but it's ok, coz u dont have to be telling everyone everything of yourself. [i hope i am making sense. but then again, if i dont also, who cares rite? ;) ]

2 weeks ago also, i met up with a close friend from university. we have been keeping in touch quite a bit through e-mail and chats and i told her when i saw her, that it doesnt seem like we havent seen each other for so long. we were coursemates throughout uni years and she was one of the people whom i could talk all sorts of stuff to and we've been close friends since then. i gave her a nick-name when i ended uni, 'MEC'. at the end of our meet, b4 she left, she handed me an envelope. i was so surprised to see what was in it. and we parted saying our byes. when i got back to the car, i was so surprised at what was in it that tears welled up in my eyes. her gift to me was such a blessing. (for those reading, u dont need to know what was inside. hehe). THANKS AGAIN MEC. i know u will be reading this and u know who u r.

i've been having problems reading 'serious' books. i've started a number of Christian books and then i dont end up finishing it. anyone wanna give me some tips on completing it. It's not that i dont like reading. i'm an avid reader of fiction books. my bro read Da Vinci Code and kept asking me to read it. i told him i was too busy and decided not to. one morning, i decide to glance through the book. and then, i finished it in 5 days. and wat do i do with the rest of the books i have started and not ended?

last nite, i cooked dinner. i realized that i enjoy doing it & it was sort of a de-stress mode for me. My bro & sis and 2 friends came over, along with my cousin and we had a good time eating home-cooked foood and it reminded us how much we missed home-cooking. (in case u are planning to ask me to cook for u, i need one month booking in advance... and if i have the time. or convince me to do it when i am stressed.)

I had many thoughts last nite b4 i slept. someone i knew was kinda disappointed with his SPM results and did not wanna tell me and also did not wanna talk when i called. i did not know how to react coz we kinda got close after a camp, but he seems kinda distant now and i dont know what to do...

i've got a list of things to do which i wrote down and so far i only crossed out 2 out of 11 i think. will be working at stuff over this weekend i think for sure.

today, someone i've known for a few years now. she shared with me of the things she is going through in life and i was so amazed at her faithfulness to God. her life has left such a mark on my life and many other people in her life. i am still thinking of ways on how i can be there for her...

Well, i'm glad i blogged. it has help me process some things i have thought about.