Journeying On

Updating my blog

2009-11-25T17:01:00.003+08:00

A friend yesterday asked me to update my blog. somehow doing this, i need to be in the right 'mood'. So it seems like i am in the mood now, so will do so.

Been in Penang for almost 5 months now. Though i think more than a month (in total) was spent either in KL or Ipoh. Initially, found it quite tough to settle down and not used to the quiet. For those who know where i used to stay in KL, it was overlooking the Federal Highway and i used to hear music from the Federal Highway almost daily. And then staying with my uncle on a landed house in Bworth... well, it was very quiet at nights especially, and it was weird for me.

But now i have got used to it and i am starting to enjoy it quite a bit.

What i miss:
- Family: Jer, Mel, Amy, Justin, Jessica, Jerome, Jaziel. Miss them quite a bit and the meetups we used to have
- Friends: too many to name them here. But the many different ones i could meet up at any times of the day and do different things together.
- PJ office: i do miss the atmosphere there and my colleagues there too. and playing pranks on them.
- Church: all at CERC and the GGs, church life, etc

What i dont miss:
- Stress!!! Penang life/work is less stressful and i am enjoying this period here.
- Jams: not much jams here, though ocassionally short ones.

What i am enjoying here:
- Driving to work daily. I drive across the bridge and it takes me about 20-30 mins to get to work. My car has been my 'sanctuary' at many moments and i seem to enjoy those morning drives to work.
- An office in an apartment. So work, doesnt seem to be so 'office-like' and that makes it easier.
- Quiet moments. These are easy to find.
- Parks. Many around and seeing many people enjoying it.
- Food. People tell me that i am lucky to be in Penang because of the food. I am not much of a crazy food person. So i dont go all out to have Penang food. The food i enjoy here is coz i stay with an uncle who is an excellent cook. I wake up to all kinds of breakfast treats and dinner too. This is the food i enjoy while in Penang.
- Visiting different churches in the few weekends i have been here.
- Attempting to make new friends and keep them.

What i hope to do:
- buck up on my readings. So much to read.
- Use time wisely. Budgetting.
- Enjoy leisure moments.
- Keep in touch with ppl that matter, despite the distance.
- pray and try to figure out what next to do after this 2 years here end.
- sort out some personal issues.

So there u have it. Some sorta update! (WLoon, thanks for reminding me to do this)

I'm in Penang!!!

2009-07-09T16:13:00.005+08:00

Yes i am here. Started on Monday. Arrived on Sunday nite. This is the bridge i will be using daily to travel coz i am staying with my uncle on the mainland. People seem to panic and say 'so far'. KL folks forget they travel 40mins to an hour sometimes to get to work and pay tolls. My journey takes 20mins to the office without jam and a total of RM5.60 for the toll. Waiting for my bike to arrive and then the toll will cost me RM1.12 only. :)

So if you are in town and wanna drop by, please feel free to call me. Don't know the popular food places yet. Not so crazy about food anyway, but will figure that out for the sake of people who like to eat.

And if you wanna buy me gifts, here are some of the things i am needing/wanting/thinking about. I am thick skinned sometimes... and i know those who read this are my friends:

1. Cooling pad/gear for my laptop
2. Mouse for laptop also
3. Headphones & mic for laptop too
4. Digital camera :)
5. CD player for car OR a modulator
6. A blanket. (not too thin, not so thick, must be double size

that's all for now.... somehow as usual, mind goes blank when it comes to things for myself...

will write more soon. thanks for reading.

COMING UP this WEEK!

2009-04-08T00:15:00.007+08:00

for more info check out www.cerc.com.my

oh Car!

2009-03-17T12:12:00.003+08:00

I am broke,
i'm gonna choke!

the car 'shutdown',
and it cost me a bomb!

clutch pad failed,
gearbox derailed.

money, money, money
its not funny.

1892 is the number,
which has caused me to hunger!

any help will be appreciated
any request can be granted!

a poem for the LoTs

2009-01-13T22:36:00.003+08:00

John Chung is the one who works in a bank,
Most of the time staring and looking quite blank,
He is the oldest among the LoT ,
But a sense of humor, he has got.

Next comes Kenny, the KDU lecturer,
Providing his students with every answer.
He still owes us a dinner at his apartment,
Though inviting us over, no he hasn't.

Esther's the computer science graduate with a law degree
She was the one who just became the 'PoTty'.
Hailing from a place called Air Panas,
We hear the area has a lot of grass.

Joshua's the only one, who didn't study law
He admires this group with a lot of awe
He hangs around with a lot of students
What he really needs is a lot of patience!

Lydia's the one getting married this year,
The first one to be hitched among us here.
She loves to drink coffee and dislikes eating rice,
We all wonder how in the world she survives.

Did y'all know we have a qualified diver?
Introducing Rosey, our tallest girl LoTter.
Speaking her mind with a lot of expression
(is she the one some people call bacon?)

Wai Nyan's the newest chambee on the block
Finally he's decided to join the chamb'ring flock.
Hopefully he joins the attorney's chamber
Government service he one day may conquer.

Samuel's the tallest of the LoT ,
A Korean girlfriend he has sought.
Working for the government he hopes to be,
He's quite 'polite' apparently.

Here you have it , the people of the LoT
We scheme, we plan, we all came from a PoT.
Who knows what lies in our future
But we do thank God we are together.

All I want for Christmas (2)... (updated again on 16/12)

2008-11-24T15:36:00.006+08:00

Wrote this last year and some did come true.

This is the updated list for this year. An takers?

1. A Laptop - i started a 'buy-Joshua-a-laptop fund'! If you wanna contribute... :)
2. A holiday to Melbourne.
3. A wallet (the current one is dying!!!)
4. Collared t-shirts
5. Sports shoes
6. A car CD-mp3 player

As you can see, i dont have a long list like last year... haha...

oh well, thanks for reading!

The Poem Continues...

2008-10-22T18:01:00.006+08:00

Decided to write another poem,

It is quite fun, and also quite wholesome!
Not sure what it will be about though,
hope it is not crap and some mumbo-jumbo.

Serviced my car two days ago,
Cost me a bomb, sigh what a blow!
Scratched it accidentally on the wall today,
Another bomb i think i will have to pay.

Back to Ipoh for three days last week,
(Making this poem rhyme is what i seek)
Most of the time, i think i was sleeping,
Home is the perfect place, 'specially if it's raining.

School-photos i found in my drawer,
I used to be so much thinner!
Compiled it all into an album,
It has become a valuable item!

Many memories during those school days,
Especially not forgetting all the school plays!
Many friends getting married already,
And some have already become a daddy!

Six weddings to attend in November & December,
Wallet will become thinner and thinner.
Catching up with old friends can be quite fun,
Hearing of stories and all they have done.

Ok will stop, time to go home
As i end, i bid u 'shalom'!

Updates!

2008-10-09T16:33:00.003+08:00

Decided to do something new,
And update my blog for all of you.
Hope it’s funny, hope it’s lame,
Hope that all of you are game.

The last few months many things have happened,
My eyes and ears have really opened.
Heartaches and hearbtbreaks were part of it,
Joy and laughter, bit by bit.

Going to Japan was such and adventure,
Nine days in total, I think I got darker.
Many people at the conference there was,
Striving for the Gospel was our cause.

Student, staffworkers all gathered together,
So many memories, so much to capture.
Thank God someone lent me a digital camera,
I was able to capture all the drama.

Lots of stories to tell about Japan,
Writing a poem, I may not end.
So I will write more about it later,
Or perhaps it will be in another chapter.

This is taking longer than I thought
I want to stop, but oh I cannot.
I will rhyme as much as I can,
Coz this is part of the plan.

What else has happened in my life?
No, I have not got a wife!
Big decisions to make, future to decide,
I hope I am not going on a wild ride.

I have been working for four plus years,
Time flies so fast, it gives me the fears,
Suppose to be older and much wiser,
As life goes on chapter by chapter.

I have to stop here,
I’ll return don’t fear!

SAYA!

2008-07-29T17:44:00.002+08:00

Hmm...

2008-07-23T18:44:00.001+08:00

"The TRUTH will set YOU free!"

It's not easy to be me!

2008-06-27T16:35:00.002+08:00

Yup, still my FAVOURITE SONG!

It's not easy, to be me...

Potluck & Boardgames

2008-06-18T15:28:00.003+08:00

A potluck is a gathering of people where each person is expected to bring a dish of food to be shared among the group. A board game is a game which played with counters or pieces that are placed on, removed from, or moved across a "board" (a premarked surface, usually specific to that game). Simple board games often make ideal family entertainment since they are often appropriate for all ages.

(Source: Wikipedia)

Was driving to Bible Study on Friday nite and was thinking of what to do on Saturday nite. Got an idea and decided to mass SMS and invite people over for food and boardgames. It's much easier to plan something when it's potluck coz dont have to worry about having enough food. Decided to borrow a few board games but expected only one to be popular... which we all ended up playing - TABOO!
This is such a fun game and good for any group to play.
Looking forward to the next Potluck and Board Games day.
Thanks JohnChung, SamLoh, Sadat, SzeHwei, JoshRaj, Tina, Desmond, EePiew, ThomasChieng, Sharon, WanLing, ChungChung & LydiaLee for coming...

Where oh where has Joshua been...

2008-06-17T12:56:00.002+08:00

Decided to write a bit today. Was away for Camp Cameron for 3 weeks and then headed back home to Ipoh for one week. Got back to the office last week. Partly feel good to be back, partly feel hard to be back. Coz being away from 'reality' for one month is a good thing, and then coming back to it can be sucky... oh well, life goes on...

Trying to win Beauty & the Beast tickets. Anyone can help me out here?

Attended Anne & Scott's wedding when i got back from camp. More of, i attended just the dinner mainly. Reached back on time to catch them in church before they left... 2 people whom i've known for quite awhile and watching them come together, especially in marriage is just amazing! :-)

Got sidetracked... mind has gone blank. will continue later or something...

Andrew weds Fiona

2008-04-09T18:24:00.003+08:00

yup. it's happening this Saturday, 12/04/08. Fiona's my cousin, whom i have been living with, since coming to KL in 2004. We look forward in excitement to this journey of theirs... :)

Lot's Meet-up

2008-03-31T12:58:00.002+08:00

We try to meet up once a month. :) This is the 3rd one! it was fun... looking fwds to more!

Anyone with an extra one?

2008-02-01T11:39:00.000+08:00

i lost my handsfree device for the phone. Anyone has an extra one that you can give me? it looks something like the one above... doesnt have to be exactly like that though... just something i can use while driving...

Anyone interested?

2008-01-16T13:57:00.001+08:00

In Christ Alone

2008-01-08T17:16:00.000+08:00

found the clip for the song, with words. amazing song. biblical words.

All I want for Christmas is....

2007-11-19T19:17:00.000+08:00

This is my Christmas wish list:

1. *A LAPTOP!*
2. My own apartment? (whether bought or rented)
3. Proper walking/running shoes (that can be used daily too!)
4. Digital Camera (updated 29/11)
5. A holiday to Melbourne?
6. Collared t-shirts.
7. Short-sleeved shirts.
8. Socks (those white sporty ones) - JT?
9. A Piano
10. An iron & ironing board (current ones sudah rosak)

(*red denotes taken already*)
(*green denotes xtreme importance*)

Any takers? haha... oh well, no harm in hoping and dreaming (and being a bit thick-skinned too).
thanks for reading, and considering to buy for me!

RoadTax, 6070 & BERSIH

2007-11-13T12:01:00.001+08:00

Sigh... just paid road tax and insurance. cost me like some RM950. i am officially bankrupt. Money come, money go. He giveth and He taketh away. Blessed be His Name.
Oh well, life goes on.

on a good note, this is my new toy, a NOKIA 6070:
i won it on some Word Jumble SMS game on Mix FM. entered so so many times and wondered i didn get anything. 2 weeks later, i got a voice mail, saying that i had won it.
so to all of u out there who dont believe in radio contests, i am living proof that u can win something, but u have to keep calling or SMS-ing. haha.

on another note, i wanted to check out the BERSIH rally in KL but was delayed in CF that day. on the way back, we got stuck in the middle of the road, when the group of people who participated were walking by. so i decided to stop the car, and sort of join in. Cant seem to upload the videos i took. will try so later. Was amazing to see people who stood up for what they believed in (though many looked fanatical).

Look out for updates coming soon.

FES website

2007-10-09T13:44:00.000+08:00

Hi all,

check out the new FES website: www.fes.org.my

In Christ Alone...

2007-10-05T16:53:00.000+08:00

Someone told me that 2 posts ago, i was 'emo'. hehe.
Still in the 'emo' mood. Here's the words of a song i like. Very true. Biblical.

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Brought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

Laptop

2007-09-20T16:29:00.000+08:00

hey you all out there who reads my blog, i want to own a laptop. it will come in really handy for me. Any buyers? :-)

Lookout for updates coming soon....

WI Weekend: 15 Sept 2007

2007-08-23T15:08:00.000+08:00

Something i read today

2007-07-17T18:20:00.000+08:00

Psalm 13 (NLT)
For the choir director: A psalm of David.

O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever?

How long will you look the other way?

How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul,

with sorrow in my heart every day?

How long will my enemy have the upper hand?

Turn and answer me, O Lord my God!

Restore the sparkle to my eyes, or I will die.

Don’t let my enemies gloat, saying, “We have defeated him!”

Don’t let them rejoice at my downfall.

But I trust in your unfailing love.

I will rejoice because you have rescued me.

I will sing to the Lord because he is good to me.

- end -

hmmm....

I like this picture

2007-06-26T18:03:00.000+08:00

Was reading some blogs and came across this pic from Adelene's blog.

GERAMnya!!!

2007-03-31T04:39:00.000+08:00

Someone broke into my car!!!

Went for dinner in SS2 with Esther. Was in the restaurant next to Watsons and the car was parked across the street. We were there for about 45 mins, from 9-9.45. Then when i got back to the car, i was so shocked. The back right window was shattered. I just went 'OMG, OMG, OMG.' We were stunned for awhile. Esther's bag was gone. It was in the back seat. It was like a school bag and had her toiletries, clothes, specs and some other stuff. THANK GOD she decided not to bring back her laptop this weekend.

And that was all that was taken. Nothing else. Not the blazer that was on the seat. Not the radio. Not the coins. Nothing. Jer said that this could have been done in a few seconds. 'Watch-break-grab-run'!!! It was kinda frustrating to see this happen and wonder.

So we headed to the police station at SS2 to make a report. A little while later, someone else walked in with the same case!!!

Hope that the insurance can cover this or else, there goes another 200bucks. :P

Well, God is still Sovereign and in control. :)

The story of Gyms and White Teeth!

2007-03-22T18:29:00.000+08:00

Gyms? what Gyms? Joshua and a gym doesnt go together. Haha. But yeah, Joshua (me), went to a gym 2 weeks ago and 'sweated' it out!
Yup, Fitness First. I had kinda filled up some questionnaire a while ago and the guy called me back and offered a free trial at the gym and also of course he wanted to 'sell' me the package. I laughed about it and decided to go. First time in a real gym. Went through all the basic machines and exercises and the last one was the toughest coz i had to cycle and cycle and cycle for 25mins to lose 150 calories i think. that almost killed me and after showering i could barely walk down the stairs coz my legs were killing me! haha.

But anyway, yup... Joshua went to the gym officially on 09/03/07. If i had money to 'splurge' (is this the right word?), i wouldnt mind considering, but its 150++ a month and if u dont go regularly, its a waste. It was fun though while it lasted. 'Sorry Mr Arvin, i just cant afford it!'
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22/03/07

today i went to the dentist. Decided to make it a yearly ritual though i remember learning in primary school that we should visit the dentist once in 6 months, which my mom does, and has real nice white teeth. so today after almost 3 years, i walked into the same clinic, with the same receptionist, and the same friendly dentist. He checked my teeth and phew. all is fine and just plaque here and there. and the scaling started....grrrrrr.....grrrrrr.... 'ok rinse', and blood flows out.... and grrr.... grrrr.... and 'ok rinse' and blood and saliva flows... haha.... but i was fine. not afraid of dentist. He did a good job on my teeth. so, from looking like this:to looking like this:hehe... no my teeth didnt look like the one above, but yeah it looks kinda extra white now and i like looking at it in the mirror. :) he gave me dental floss and asked me to make sure i come for the 'regular' check-ups.
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So what else is new with me?
- no, not married yet.
- no, no kids yet.
- yes, still working at the same place.
- yes, i still look basically the same.
- no, i have not put on weight. its still 62-63kg. haha.
- yes, i have hair. havent shaved bald for awhile now. maybe in May at camp.
- yes, still SMSing all the time and even when driving. :P
- yes, Nokia 3310 still works and i will still use it unless u wanna give me one. :)
- yes, i am still as LAME as ever, with a couple of new lame jokes. ask me personally.
- no, i dont ride a bike anymore, since end 2005. Wira Aeroback has been serving me well.
- no,i wont continue on as i got to go.

thanks for reading. its nice to write when u r bored and in the mood.

peace.

NO FONE!!!

2007-03-14T16:58:00.000+08:00

just a short update. My fone officially died on me today 14/3 at 8.10am. No idea what happened to it. sob sob..... so, i'f i'm uncontactable, do forgive me. Not sure whether i can survive without one though... hehe....

anyone with an extra fone? :P

...

2007-02-12T13:55:00.000+08:00

You Should Try Skydiving

Don't look before you leap
And you'll become a hardcore extreme sports addict

What Extreme Sport Should You Try?

SUPERMAN

2006-11-30T18:19:00.000+08:00

Discovered this website and found my favourite song. :)

Five for Fighting - Superman (It's Not Easy)

Music Code provided by Song2Play.Com

Wedding Pics

2006-11-08T19:14:00.000+08:00

Yay, finally got Justin to burn me the CD with the pics he took at Jeremy's wedding. Here are some of it. will upload the rest somewhere else another day.

1. The Johnsons': Mom, Jeremy, Jamilah @ Amy, Me, Justin & Jessica2. With Melissa, the bride:
3. Almost full bridal party, minus 2 flower-girls:
4. Jeremy and *ahem* Me, in church, waiting for the bride:

5. Jer, the best-men, and pageboy:
6. Guys with cufflings. :)7. Joshua, Jessica & Justin:

cuti-cuti malaysia

2006-11-01T01:41:00.000+08:00

hi all,

am of for a 3-day break, 1-3 Nov, to Cameron highlands. looking forward to sleeping, eating, walking, reading and reflection too.

yay. holiday.

Yaw Eng weds Sook Yee

2006-10-19T17:58:00.000+08:00

Yup, they got married on 16 Sept 2006 and i had the honour of being bestman. Some of the pics i curi-ed from their online album:

Moments with my Saviour

2006-10-18T18:23:00.000+08:00

1. hug hug
2. cry cry
3. walk walk
4. ask ask
5. listen listen
6. talk talk
7. sit in silence

"Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me, all the days, all the days of my life."

Famous People i'd like to meet.

2006-10-12T18:14:00.000+08:00

was just thinking. these are some famous people i would like to meet and have a conversation with. i dunno how, i dunno when, but it would be interesting.

1. Prince William, the prince
2. Julia Roberts, the actress
3. Jien, the Malaysian Idol host
4. Amy, from Judging Amy
5. Aishwarya Rai, the ex-Miss World
6. Douglas Lim, the ex-Kopitiam fella, and also the Broken Bridges fella
7. John Grisham, the author
8. Ian Thorpe, the swimmer

i think there's more to that list but cant think now.... so just post first.

Long awaited updates

2006-10-11T16:24:00.000+08:00

been wanting to do this, but so many things have happend over the past few months and it's hard at times to find space to breathe.

two weddings & a funeral

Yaw Eng & Sook Yee got married on the 16th. i had the honour of being bestman, and it was kinda fun. it was fun also being the 'hengtai' as how they called us in Cantonese, where the 'guys' had to go to pick-up the bride on the morning of the wedding, and before the bridegroom could see the bride, the bridesmaids would 'bully' the guys into doing weird things. we had to run around the hotel (on the same floor), eat weird foodstuff, write a poem and sing it out. also had to do pumping. phew. thank God i didnt have to do it. haha... Kenny Cheah did it on behalf. but Yaw Eng had to do some too. and then there was the tea ceremony. and again the tea ceremony. and then the wedding. simple, nice, enjoyable. the dinner was a bit tension coz Anne and myself were the emcees, and we hadnt met much to prepare beforehand. but somehow, i think it was good enough (i hope! :P). we worked well together. it was also nice catching up with the rest who were there.

Jeremy & Melissa got married on the 30th. and i was bestman again along with Melvin. Anyway, Jeremy is a Johnson. so you make the connection.... the wedding was really nice. the church was decorated lovely-ly. the ceremony was simple.... i really shivered a one part when i had to hold on to the rings and pass it on. what if i dropepd it? :P pheww.... that didnt happen. and surprisingly so fast for an Anglican wedding. :P and being in the digital age, thousands (and i mean THOUSANDS) of photos were taken. and it just didnt seem to end.... after the wedding, we headed to the hall to decorate it and rushed through that and was just in time for the dinner. it was really nice seeing all family and friends coming together to decorate and get things done and we didnt have to hire professionals. it was a fun nite, celebrating it with family and close friends. not forgetting the 'super' speech i gave that brought many to tears. one day, will consider posting the speech here. also, the way they organized the speeches, without having an emcee. Kudos to Justin for doing a lot of running around that nite. oh yeah, Justin is a Johnson too...

and then came the funeral. few days later, in the midst of all this happiness. Uncle Michael suddenly passed away. just like that. no sickness, no diseases. he had his afternoon nap. and he didnt wake up. it came as a real shocker to all of us. all the family had to come down again. it was sad to see Aunty Theresa & Adrian alone now... and how they are going to cope. but apparently, this was the way he wanted to 'go'. without any pain or suffering. he will be missed for sure.... happineess and sadness can happen so fast together... sigh...

and then there was the Ipoh wedding dinner and the one in Butterworth. it was one tiring week of travelling and driving and meeting people and being happy and being sad and not knowing what to do.... i really hope to take a short break in November and refect and think about all that has happened.

early Sept also wasnt an easy period with many things going on in my head... and those stuff are still going in my head... :P still dunno what to do yet. have to 'process'.

aiyo.... wat a long post. wanna write more but malas d. will do so another time. hope to get some pics and update soon. its always nice to see wedding pics. everyone usually looks so nice all dressed up.

peace.

Reunion (Part 2)

2006-08-07T15:20:00.001+08:00

Attached is the back part of the flyer in-case any of you need more info!

REUNION: CAMP CAMERON

2006-07-31T14:24:00.000+08:00

When? 12th August 2006 @ 6pm (dinner included)
Where? Trinity Methodist Church, PJ
Who? Calling for all batches of Camp Cameron since 1970s.
Why? To meet and listen to Mr Ohtawa, from Japan. To catch up with our camp Cam friends.
To raise funds for next year's Camp Cameron.
Berapa? RM70.00

Hey all, this is the flyer to the event. some of u may have already heard about this and some may not. but anyway, yeah, it's happenign very very soon and u need to get the tickets for the night. You may be asking, who is Mr Ohtawa. He used to be a staff worker with KGK Japan (equivalent to FES Malaysia) and many years ago, he used to speak at many many Camp Camerons. so, this time, he is back here again to share with us. and also, what other best way to catch up with each other from various batches?

2002 - Do u remember the bell being stolen by the Easter bunny?
The ghosts 'appearing' at the Neriton girls' window?
The attack of the 'pad-girls'? haha...
many many more memories...

2004, 2005, 2006.... many memories for me as i have been to 4 already. so if u need more info or need to get a ticket, drop me a line here or call my office at 03-77829592 or u can come by the office and get the tickets. hope to see many of you there.

Infectious F's camp

2006-07-20T13:42:00.000+08:00

hehe. curi-ed this pic from Renee. Hope she doesnt mind.

Another Song

2006-07-18T18:23:00.000+08:00

Sang this song over the weekend at the camp below. It keeps playing in my head till now. Meaningful words, yet not so 'easy' to sing it, especially the chorus.

I, the Lord of sea and sky, I have heard my people cry.
All who dwell in deepest sin my hand will save.
I, who made the stars of night, I will make their darkness bright.
Who will bear my light to them? Whom shall I send?

Chorus:

Here I am, Lord. Is it I. Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I, the Lord of sea and sky, I have borne my people’s pain.
I have wept for love of them. They turn away.
I will break their hearts of stone; give them hearts for love alone.
I will speak my word to them. Whom shall I send?

I, the Lord of wind and flame, I will tend the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them. My hand will save.
Finest bread I will provide till their hearts be satisfied.
I will give my life to them. Whom shall I send?

CAMP CAMP CAMP!!!

2006-06-12T16:23:00.000+08:00

Hurry, as you'll have to book seats for the preview by 7 JULY 2006. (extended)

Send all your enquiries to eupui@fes.org.my

AWAY... AWAY... AWAY...

2006-05-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

yup,

i'll be away for 3 weeks starting May 6, till the 27th in Cameron Highlands for our yearly Camp Cameron. so, will see and read stuff only when i get back, though i might get access once a week. take care all.

still contact-able through fone as the place i will be, has Celcom connection. :)

peace.

7 phrases...

2006-04-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

1. Father forgive them for they do not know what they are doing.
2. I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise.
3. Dear woman, here is your son. Here is your mother.
4. My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?
5. I am thirsty
6. It is finished.
7. Father, into you hands I commit my Spirit.

... after 3 hour Good Friday service...

Singing this song now...

2006-03-24T18:16:00.000+08:00

(pic courtesy of this link)

King of my life, I crown Thee now,
Thine shall the glory be;
Lest I forget Thy thorn crowned brow,
Lead me to Calvary.

Chorus:
Lest I forget Gethsemane,
Lest I forget Thine agony;
Lest I forget Thy love for me,
Lead me to Calvary.

Show me the tomb where Thou wast laid,
Tenderly mourned and wept;
Angels in robes of light arrayed
Guarded Thee whilst Thou slept.

Let me like Mary, through the gloom,
Come with a gift to Thee;
Show to me now the empty tomb,
Lead me to Calvary.

May I be willing, Lord, to bear
Daily my cross for Thee;
Even Thy cup of grief to share,
Thou hast borne all for me.

Updates?

2006-03-20T22:53:00.001+08:00

so many stories, so many news, so much to update, so how la?

so i'll try.

just finished a 4-hour discussion with ADK. Working on some sessions for Camp Cameron 2006. Kinda exciting to be preparing for these sessions but it also takes up a lot of time of reading, discerning, or just being silent.

going of to Melaka soon. Gonna go for MMU CF tonight. this should be my second-last time to the CF. Still in the process of 'saying my goodbyes' to them.

My car, my car, my car... it's about 4 months now owning a car. Have any of u seen me 'flying around' in my black Wira? :) Quite fun la having a car. Already hit the 10000km and the mileage goes up very fast nowadays. The not-so-fun part is having to pay for a mere 5-minutes parking. That's when i wish i had a bike. But i'm not complaining. Talking about bike, i havent got my insurance-claim yet for my bike. wonder what has happened. need to call soon!

2006 - i term it as a YEAR of WEDDINGS.

1. Ei Lynn's
2. Ben
3. Jer & Mel
4. Sook & YawEng
5. Heard that Peter & Adeline too

Anyone else i know that's getting married? Bankrupt la aku. hehe. but it's exciting to see this phase of family and friends.

been away 3 weekends in a row. Quite tiring and my system in some ways are mixed up and i'm not even sure what day it is. But it's been challenging to decide what i can or cant do over the weekends and how to make up for it. I dont even feel Lent is going on now coz i've missed church and all. Hope that i'll be able to come back on track. :P

alrite la... i hope this is a good enough update!

peace to you all who read this.

oh yeah, i made a list the other day. few people (actually many people) i wanna meet up in the next few weeks to catch up and chit-chat with (and maybe get a free meal? hehe...) Hope i'll be able to plan it out and meet them.

peace again.

:)

UPDATES

2006-03-07T16:20:00.000+08:00

...coming soon...coming soon...coming soon...coming soon...

IT'S NOT EASY TO BE ME

2006-03-07T16:07:00.000+08:00

I remember this song in 2nd year of university when myself, Emily, Jasmine & Sharon was typing out a script for one of our classes and this song played on the radio and the girls sang along to the chorus. somehow, whenever i hear this song, it reminds me of that incident... the words are quite interesting too... "It's not easy to be me!"

Superman (It's Not Easy)
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away…away from me
It’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It’s not easy to be me.

peace!

It’s not easy to be me.

Valentine's Day

2006-02-14T10:33:00.000+08:00

"... I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her..."

Julia Roberts, Notting Hill

I AM SOCIAL! : P

2006-01-16T18:32:00.000+08:00

Counselor = can
Dental Hygienist = YEAH RITE! to a person who finds it hard even to brush at nite. :P
Librarian = maybe can (if got Internet access and can chat in the library)
Nurse = WHAT IN THE WORLD? cant do that la...
Parole Officer = HAHA
Personal Trainer = hmm... train what? train who?
Physical Therapist = haha. but then again, i did help a stroke patient do their therapy & exercise every morning, for about 3 months...
Social Worker = :D
Teacher = yup, possible... for sure...

2006-01-13T19:43:00.000+08:00

Your Career Type: Social

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.
Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems.

You would make an excellent:

Counselor - Dental Hygienist - Librarian
Nurse - Parole Officer - Personal Trainer
Physical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher

The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.

What's Your Ideal Career?

Updates, updates, updates...

2005-12-19T00:38:00.000+08:00

yes, this is an update from me. or more of a short update. many have been asking me to update! so here is one la... been running up and down and here and there... and also me, being a super-last-minute person, been running out of time too.

was away for National Conference (NC) 2005 from 28 Nov - 3 Dec. to write about NC, well i hope to do that in a separate blog. and then, after a short break, i was of for school leavers' camp from 9 - 16th. it seemed kinda long for me, but the time flew by. very little sleep daily and 26 noisy students, i think i lost weight. (but somehow, the 'tummy' still stays the same. haha).

anyway, the CAR arrived around a month ago. its kinda cool having a car and being able to drive around. but as the phrase from Spiderman goes (or something like it) : "with great powers, come great responsibilty." i need to be more careful when i am driving, and the wallet gets drained easily... not forgetting trying to save up for insurance and emergencies, and making monthly payments. need to be extra careful on spending too. also, KL is always filled with jams here and there... and it's no fun being stuck in one in a car. but well, i still thank God for it. The convenience and also i am able to take people here and there.... which is still fun for me...

anyway, it's 1am. i have not slept properly for the past 10 days. i think i neeed to zzzzz soon. will write more soon. thanks for reading!

COMING SOON...

2005-11-15T09:43:00.000+08:00

initially, the plan was to get a MyVi. but the waiting period was too long (around 7-10 months) and then of course, there was the stolen-bike incident. so, decided to go ahead with something else, which turned out to be this.

so, this will be my new 'toy' soon. a 'toy' that's going to be a big responsibility. and also may cause less food in my tummy. hehe...

want a ride anyone?
COMING SOON...

Advance Degree - MEDICINE????

2005-10-23T16:48:00.000+08:00

You Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine)

You're both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination.
You were born to be a doctor.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

LAST CALL FOR NATIONAL CONFERENCE!!!

2005-10-05T11:26:00.000+08:00

No Title

2005-10-04T18:54:00.000+08:00

Some thoughts since i havent posted for quite a bit:

1. why am i mr-last-minute? havent i got into enough of trouble already?
2. Visited KUSTEM last week. all the way in Kuala Terengganu. Also got a chance to visit Rev. Charles and family.
3. The plan is to go home to Ipoh on Friday evening / nite. I hope the plan works. Things coming up one after the other.
4. Jessica turns 21 on Friday.
5. Still havent bought Justin his present.
6. Time is flying by.
7. Hope my loan plan works out. then, can get a car... soon.... :)
7. many many more things to say.

wahh... i wanna write, but havent got time. sometimes, no inspiration/motivation/ideas.

terima kasih diucapkan kepada some of you who visit my blog regularly, tho i dont regularly update it.

YK quoted: "troubles are like cactus, it beomes painful when u sit on it too long..."

alrite, back to reality! (and dinner at uncle jeff's... definitely there'll be delicious home made dessert)

PEACE.
____________________________________________________________________

NATIONAL CONFERENCE 2005

2005-08-30T20:10:00.000+08:00

time is running out. spaces are limited.

i repeat.

time is running out. spaces are limited.

HUH???

F.E.S MALAYSIA brings to you:

NATIONAL CONFERENCE 2005

(NC '05)

28 NOV - 3 DEC

with the theme:

"en.ZYME"

apa itu NC?

a NATIONAL GATHERING of students from colleges & universities ALL over MALAYSIA

to HEAR, FEEL & be PART of the STUDENT VOICE of MALAYSIA and to RESPOND to His CALL for us.

apa akan berlaku di sana?

bible expositions on the book of JOSHUA.

ISSUES, CALLING, MANDATE, MISSION, etc. in our life as students of MALAYSIA.

campus group & small group meetings.

meeting all SORTS of STUDENTS from ALL over MALAYSIA.

worshipping Him together in ONE VOICE.

GAMES. :)

and MANY, MANY, MANY more.

NC happens only ONCE in 3 years.

(SEKALI SAHAJA?)

yes, only ONCE in every 3 years.

wanna be part of this once in a lifetime conference?

contact your campus/college staffworker.

or call 03-77829592

or e-mail info@fes.org.my

time is running out. spaces are limited.

i repeat.

time is running out. spaces are limited.

dateline NC'05: 23.10.05

WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR????

faster sign-up la.....

brought to you by:

FES MALAYSIA (www.fes.org.my)

GOOD 2

2005-08-30T20:02:00.000+08:00

and then today, as i was driving again, and listening to the same station, it was contest time again. so i was all ready. question was, "what is something that your body can do only 6 times a year?" thot a bit and i knew the answer. called immediately. "Hi, i'm Joshua here. DONATE BLOOD." and yeah, that was it... i won... AGAIN. it wasnt about the prize. it was more the thrill of knowing the answer, and the excitement of winning something. so, this is wat i won today, another CD:

who says it's hard to win simple contests?

peace.

...

2005-08-30T19:58:00.000+08:00

alamak. i think the pic in the blog below is too big la. it didnt work out as i planned. as long all readers' understand, it's ok. :)

GOOD

2005-08-30T19:42:00.000+08:00

i like entering contests. especially radio ones. sometimes the answers are easy. i have been a fan of Radio 4 since i was a kid, and still am today. they have changed names now to Traxx FM, but content wise, things are similar and i still enjoy it.

last week, as i was driving, there was a contest. the requirements were that when the next patriotic song is played, callers had to call in and sing the song. and guess what i did? yup, i did. i sang Sejahtere Malaysia live on radio, but i'm sure not many people i know would have heard it, coz if they did, they would have called me. haha. so anyway, i won my self a CD, which is: ----->

BAD

2005-08-30T19:00:00.000+08:00

been using few people's cars recently. staff at office have been very kind and always willing to lend me their cars, especially after the bike incident. but things have been happening many times when i drive la. not so sure if it's the way i drive, or just that the cars dont like me.

1st incident: i had taken Darshini's car to UPM, coz she was away in S'pore. on the way back, or just before leaving, there were lots of fumes from engine. apparently the radiator was leaking. the car 'smoked' and 'smoked' and 'smoked' when we reached back. repairs cost RM9++. Thank God, there was people how helped with the payment.

2nd incident: exactly one week later, my bike was stolen.

3rd incident: 2 weeks ago, while in Cameron, i took David's car out to pick some people. later parked it back at same place. next day, the battery was dead! the lights were switched off, and everything was normal, but the batery just died.

4th incident: last week, i took David's car again out, to got to HELP CF. kept finding it hard to get into 2nd gear. told David about it and later, when he drove, he felt it too. so he took to mechanic, and apparently it had something to do with not enough oil somewhere in the gearbox. (but it happened, only when i started driving)

5th incident: just now, i went to get Kim Cheng's car from her place, coz she is away and i need the car for tomorrow. drove back to the office. reached back office, tried to relock the steering wheel with the lock, and something was wrong. the key did not seem to be able to get thru. tried and tried. and then, something tiny fell of. a tiny metal piece. and now, the steering wheel lock is 'rosak.' ayo... so now, i'll have to go look for one tomorrow...

6th incident: NO WAY MAN!!!!

hope that it ends here la...

really thank God those who have been most willing to pick me up and send me back, and also lend me their cars when needed....

peace.
____________________________________________________________________

Tak Jadi...

2005-08-26T12:02:00.000+08:00

My trip to Terengganu 'tak jadi lah.' I went all the way to the bus station near PWTC. usually, there are bus tickets available on the spot. but today, there was none whatsoever. 2 counters had no tickets for today and tomorrow and and one counter, tickets were sold out for 3 days...

dunno whether it's my fault for not buying the ticket earlier, or it's just not meant to be for me to go...

so, here i am... still in KL for the weekend...

maybe it's in His plans...

:)

2005-08-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

Your Outrageous Name Is

Hugh Mungous

Outrageous Name Generator

19 days...

2005-08-23T13:52:00.000+08:00

19 days ago, (i think), was the official robbery. my worldly possession - GONE...

after that, i was in and out of KL, to Penang, Seremban, Camerons. and today i head to Melaka and Friday i head to Terengganu.

wow. lot of travelling.

i miss my bike. the convenience and the independance was enjoyable.

thoughts are now confirmed on a car. to be exact, a MyVi. thinking of the Metallic silver one. but the problem now, is cash. yeah, the age old problem.

"...for the love of money is the root of all evil..."

roughly the car cost RM46000. after a downpayment of 10% (which is all the savings that i have now in the bank), i need to fork out around RM520 a month for it.

so, at the moment, trying to work out a budget.

maybe it's time i stop eating lunch, or breathing in more air.
maybe it's time i stop worrying.

anyone wanna help contribute to my car fund? :)

what a messy blog.

well, it's my blog and i can do what i want.

PEACE

GONE!!!

2005-08-04T11:14:00.000+08:00

so much for the last post.

between 1am and 4am this morning (4th Aug 2005), my bike was stolen. i had seen it when i entered the office at 1, but when i left at 4, it had disappeared. no where to be seen. stolen. GONE.

GONE!!!

Goodbye BHH1966.

BIKE

2005-07-25T17:24:00.000+08:00

that's my current mode of transport. hehe.
i kinda enjoy riding my bike actually. just that sometimes, i need to travel long distance and also a bit hard when it rains.
also hard when u wanna go out as a group, and u wish u had a car to drive your friends & family around...
well, God is good... :)

CAR

2005-07-25T17:08:00.000+08:00

me thinking of getting me-self a car. the one above is the current possibility. but, not enuf money yet... and need to work out a plan on how to pay monthly. anyone has any idea if grass taste nice?

PAST LIFE...

2005-07-25T17:05:00.000+08:00

just for all's info, NOPE, i dont believe in a past life... that was done just for fun...

hmmm.... (2)

2005-07-22T11:20:00.000+08:00

i posted something last nite. and some people read it. some didnt agree with me posting such a thing. and i thought about it overnite. i thought of the people who reads my blog. i know i am entitled to my own opinions and how i feel about stuff, but i think what i write here should not affect others (wainyan, u faham kan?). Lydia & Wailoon, thanks for reading and commenting...

i am bored...

2005-07-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Banished Executor of Sacrifices.

Where You Lived: Portugal.

How You Died: Dysentery.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

2005-07-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

i am listening to this song now. it captures some of my thoughts...

DC Talk - In The Light
From the album Jesus Freak

I keep trying to find a life
On my own, apart from You
I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I do

What's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

(chorus)
I wanna be in the Light
As You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, Lord be my Light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the Light

The disease of self runs through my blood
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under control
Tell me, what's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

Honesty becomes me
[There's nothing left to lose]
The secrets that did run me
[In Your presence are defused]
Pride has no position
[And riches have no worth]
The fame that once did cover me
[Has been sentenced to this Earth]
Has been sentenced to this Earth

Tell me, what's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

[There's no other place that I want to be]
[No other place that I can see]
[A place to be that's just right]
[Someday I'm gonna be in the Light]
[You are in the Light]
[That's where I need to be]
[That's right where I need to be]

too late at nite now to write more. just one phrase:

THAT I'M STILL A MAN IN NEED OF A SAVIOUR!

aren't we all?

hmm...

2005-07-15T14:14:00.000+08:00

3 thoughts... (continued)

2005-07-09T15:40:00.000+08:00

Wrote the previous blog in a rush. few typos. here it goes again, the original plan... :-)

ORIGINAL 3 thots:

1. I'd rather be dead than alive?

2. Am i working like a dog?

3. FEAR GOD.

All 3 were taken in relations to a passage on Ecclesiastes 4 and the starting part of Chapter 5. i used Eugene Patterson's 'The Message'. It was just a super-short devotion before a meeting proper. and that was basically the summary for me.

3 parts that got me thinking:

"... so i congratulated the dead who are already dead instead of the living who are still alive. but luckier are the dead or the living person who has never even been, who has never seen the bad business that takes place on earth. (question to me: is there such a person?)"

"... a solitary person, completely alone - no children, no family, no friends - yet working obsessively late into the night, compulsively greedy for more and more, never bothering to ask, 'Why am i working like a dog, never having any fun? And who cares?' "

"But against all illusion and fantasy and empty talk, there's always this rock foundation: FEAR GOD! "

Would i rather be dead than alive? i don't think so. too much to see, too much to hear, too much to do. am i doing all the right things? so, then, AM I WORKING LIKE A DOG? not merely about the work i do, but about life in general. am i letting life just pass me by, or am i doing something about it.

Msg i heard at HELP CF was on injustice, corruption, etc... it was disturbing, irritating, many thoughts... and brings me back to thoughts on 'what am i doing about it???'

FEAR GOD - had mamak with a friend on Thurs nite, and he quoted some stuff from a book he was reading. Which is more scary? Knowing all the right things, and ignoring it or, knowing all the right things, and doing the total opposite? i think both of it are wrong. and yet, i am guilty of both!

Amos 5 - "... you talk about God, the God-of-the-Angel-Armies, being your best friend. Well, live like it, and maybe it will happen..." - what kinda life am i living?

well, that's my post for now. not sure when the next one's gonna come...

time to go home and LIVE LIFE.

tonight, staying over at kygan's place. been a while since all of us got together for chit-chat, nonsense talk & also catching up. think it's gonna be good.

Jayanthi, Ling, Justin, Piew, Kygan & his other half (alicia)... see u later... anybody else wanna join us? sure... few criterias though:

1. Born in 1981 or 1982
2. Translate 'Bene Orasse Bene Studiesse' or continue this:
"Not so very long ago, more than hundred years or so......................."

Special exceptions are for the above mentioned's girlfriend/boyfriend/husband/wife. :-)

3 thoughts...

2005-07-08T11:49:00.000+08:00

1. Am i working like a dog?

2. (yikes, forgot yhe 2nd one)

3. FEAR GOD!

just some thoughts for now. shared it yesterday at a meeting.... will continue when i remember the 2nd one.

going for CF now. HELP CF. topic is on injustice. wonder what the speaker's conna talk about....

hmmm....

another one...

2005-06-22T01:05:00.001+08:00

"What if i stumble? What if i fall?"

words of a song i remember. not sure who's the singer.

GRACE!!!

Be Thou My Vision

2005-06-16T17:55:00.000+08:00

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.

a song that has been with me for the past few weeks and the words really mean a lot. i still remember learning this song when i attended Camp Cameron in 2002. the tune and the words really captured me. sang it quite a bit when i went for EARC, and it still plays in my head...

so, that's my post for now. :)

I'm awake...

2005-05-21T10:47:00.000+08:00

sorry for the silence for the past two months. somehow, i wanna use this blog more purposefully, but yet to think of how. was away for a 3-week camp in April in Cameron Highlands. And then i hada short break and then headed for a mission trip (within Malaysia) from 6-17 May. 2 days break, and back to the office for 2 days of staff meetings. and then on Tuesday, i head for EARC in Jakarta.

will update my blog properly once i come back and manage to think, reflect and re-think all that has happened in this past 2 months...

Running through my head...

2005-03-11T18:49:00.000+08:00

'Running thru my head, runing thru my head...'

Words of a song with those lyrics have been "running thru my head" for the past few days and just now. many things have been runing thru my head and i've been wanting to sort it out, but still figuring out how to process, digest & do stuff.

Someone recently commented that i am a 'bottled up' person. i used to be quite close to this person at one point in life and we've both moved on now, and not so close anymore. when he passed the comment, i felt like laughing coz i've never thot of myself as a 'bottled up' person, ever before. He got me thinking and then i got irritated that he actually would say something like that about me. and then i realized that i have 'grown-up'. Maybe my friend thinks that way coz we aren't that close anymore and i dont tell him stuff. and this got me to appreciate the few people in my life that i am close to and i share things with. another friend told me that i may be 'bottled-up', but it's ok, coz u dont have to be telling everyone everything of yourself. [i hope i am making sense. but then again, if i dont also, who cares rite? ;) ]

2 weeks ago also, i met up with a close friend from university. we have been keeping in touch quite a bit through e-mail and chats and i told her when i saw her, that it doesnt seem like we havent seen each other for so long. we were coursemates throughout uni years and she was one of the people whom i could talk all sorts of stuff to and we've been close friends since then. i gave her a nick-name when i ended uni, 'MEC'. at the end of our meet, b4 she left, she handed me an envelope. i was so surprised to see what was in it. and we parted saying our byes. when i got back to the car, i was so surprised at what was in it that tears welled up in my eyes. her gift to me was such a blessing. (for those reading, u dont need to know what was inside. hehe). THANKS AGAIN MEC. i know u will be reading this and u know who u r.

i've been having problems reading 'serious' books. i've started a number of Christian books and then i dont end up finishing it. anyone wanna give me some tips on completing it. It's not that i dont like reading. i'm an avid reader of fiction books. my bro read Da Vinci Code and kept asking me to read it. i told him i was too busy and decided not to. one morning, i decide to glance through the book. and then, i finished it in 5 days. and wat do i do with the rest of the books i have started and not ended?

last nite, i cooked dinner. i realized that i enjoy doing it & it was sort of a de-stress mode for me. My bro & sis and 2 friends came over, along with my cousin and we had a good time eating home-cooked foood and it reminded us how much we missed home-cooking. (in case u are planning to ask me to cook for u, i need one month booking in advance... and if i have the time. or convince me to do it when i am stressed.)

I had many thoughts last nite b4 i slept. someone i knew was kinda disappointed with his SPM results and did not wanna tell me and also did not wanna talk when i called. i did not know how to react coz we kinda got close after a camp, but he seems kinda distant now and i dont know what to do...

i've got a list of things to do which i wrote down and so far i only crossed out 2 out of 11 i think. will be working at stuff over this weekend i think for sure.

today, someone i've known for a few years now. she shared with me of the things she is going through in life and i was so amazed at her faithfulness to God. her life has left such a mark on my life and many other people in her life. i am still thinking of ways on how i can be there for her...

Well, i'm glad i blogged. it has help me process some things i have thought about.

Someone older...

2005-02-28T14:48:00.000+08:00

A fren of mine came up with this : 10 reasons why you shouldn’t have boyfriends who are 10 years older than you. i wonder what the rest of u think...

been wanting to blog more often but somehow i dont. still figuring out how to make it more intentional and yet beneficial too...

weekend was good. Sunday involved driving to Selayang and back. a journey that took around 2 hours. my bro & i came to a conclusion after the journey, that we should have just drove back home to Ipoh instead.

I spoke in MMU Melaka last week on 'Blessed are the Peacemakers....' Interesting topic, wasnt easy to prepare, wasnt easy to gather my thoughts... WASNT EASY speaking... :P but i survived. i looked at it as how my colleague David said 'we learn together as we speak...' i've learnt, discovered & decided what needs to be done in my situation.

Looking forward to watching the Oscars tonight though i already know some of the winners. the wonders of the Internet.

:)

Post CNY, V-day & more...

2005-02-17T11:55:00.000+08:00

just realized that i havent 'blogged' for a week now. i wonder how people can do it daily. (no offense ya) :)

i need to get more organized. my table's a mess & so is my brain! i just started reading a book titled 'Ordering Your Private World', by Gordon Mcdonald. i started it awhile ago and then i got distracted and i stopped. And now, i've been challenged to read it (and finish it!). i've read the first few pages already and i hope to finish it soon. i really need ORDER in my WORLD.

Yup, barbers are open on CNY in Kota Bharu. i got myself a decent haircut for RM8 only. post-CNY blues didnt get me down. i reached back at 5am on Sat morning. managed to get sleep for about 3 hours only on the bus. slept more once i was back home and then worked from 11am-4pm.

Church on Sunday was normal. still thinking of what i can do in church. as much as i wanna get involved with the stuff in church, i am worried i may be too tired or it may wear me down. and then i think to myself, is it necessary to be involved with the church's activities? is church only a place i go to on Sunday? why do i go to church anyway? Throughout my growing up years, the church played a significant role in my life & my siblings. Church was just across the street and when we moved further away, it was only a 7 minute walk away. Being 'older', 'wiser' & a 'working man' now changes my thoughts of church life and what i can or shouldnt be doing in church. Youths in KL are different from the ones i grew up in Ipoh. The people in church are also different. 8 months now in KL and church is just a place i go to on Sunday to be with God's people, hear his Word & be refreshed. Can i just continue doing that in church?

Valentine's day was like any other normal day for me. I dont understand the hype the world has created over it. But since i am 'attached', i have to do something, or else i may be in trouble. i was in KL & she was in Penang. Gifts were passed. basically that was it.

I head to Kuala Terengganu tomorrow to visit the CF in KUSTEM and will be there till Sunday. My 2nd visit to the state. Being in FES also involves a lot of travelling. Looking forward to some time alone as i make another 8 hour journey on the bus. (and 8 hour back also on Sunday)

Other random thoughts:
- i am speaking in the MMU CF next week on being a 'peacemaker'. i have the rough idea in my head on what i want to convey but i havent worked it out in detail yet.
- Mom & sis reaches back on Monday. I miss my mom!!! manage to call her once last week and will try to call tonight once more.
-Many b'days coming up. i need to post cards.
-My motorcycle needs to be serviced (and also to be washed)

I need ORDER! :)

Chinese New Year

2005-02-09T16:16:00.000+08:00

I had my first 'reunion' dinner last night. we all sat around the table, 9 of us total, to a dinner of steamboat. all kinds of stuff - meat balls, fish balls, crab meat, chicken meat, mushrooms, noodles, kangkung, prawns, and many more - went into the boling pot of soup. at the end of it, all of us were stuffed. before the meal though, i was given the 'honour' to pray. caught by shock there coz didnt expect it, but yeah, it turned out alrite i guess. the nite ended by watching tv and eating 'bak kua' for supper. =)

woke up kinda late this morning (as we all slept late), in time to get ready and leave for lunch. We were scheduled to visit Uncle Wong (a man from church). when we reached there, he seemed kinda excited to see us. and we sat in the living room, munched titbits and WATCHED TV. even though Uncle Wong sat there, we WATCHED TV. and then, we moved to the table for lunch. and this was a shocker. lunch was SATAY! lots of it! with the nasi himpit and also bread. Uncle Wong had invited Malay friends over to his place also and i guess SATAY was the best Malaysian food to serve. so, anyone ever had SATAY for Chinese New Year lunch b4? =)

next, we headed over to another house, and we sat around the living room, and guess what? the TV was switched on again. and most of the eyes were focussed there again, on th TV. after a while, conversations got kicking and eyes weren't too focussed there.so, what is it about the TV la? i think a lot of us have forgotten how to talk or to make conversations. and the TV is a good way of avoiding talking and just watching the TV. i too have a problem talking to new people (especially older ones) and tend to not talk or just look away. got 'reprimanded' by older bro the other day and he said, u have to learn how to make conversations and it is quite simple to do so... if only... haha...

anyway, that was just something that i noticed today...not sure what the next 2 days will be like but it has been relaxing so far. i've already got 5 red packets. =) but being here, and spending time together (even though it's watching tv together), is enjoyable for me...

i think i need a hair cut. i wonder if haircuts in Kota Bharu would be cheaper than KL? i wonder if the barber / hair saloons in Kota Bharu are open on CNY? well, i'll soon find out...

i've joined the circle!

2005-02-05T09:20:00.000+08:00

Yup, i've joined the 'circle' of bloggers. still trying to figure out why i am doing this whether just to be in the 'in' group or perhaps it's gonna help me to to put my thoughts into words as i have been neglecting to do so for quite awhile now and thoughts have gone by and forgotten.

Random thoughts for now:

-Looking forward to the weekend, though i feel time will fly by. been wanting to go for a traditional service at the church i attend (St Paul's, PJ) but havent gone yet. I've been attending the contemporary service since the time i've been in KL. Made plans with a friend to go for the 7am (yeah, 7am!!!) service, and hope we will be able to do so. i have a problem waking up early and have gotten used to the 11.30 service.

- Going to Kota Bharu for CNY. 'reunion' dinner with the 'in-laws'. will be leaving on Monday nite and back by Saturday morning. looking forward to a relaxing time and also collecting some 'angpow'. also definitely looking forward to spending quality time with my...... :)

- so used to calling my mom when i've got things to tell and had stuff to tell her last nite but had no one to tell coz she's not around for the next 3 weeks. this is the first time i think i wont be able to talk to her for a long period. so used to calling her once in 2 or 3 days just to chit chat (since i left home in 2001). hmm... wondering what's gonna happen...

- housemate is moving out and that's good news. my bro and i share a super-tiny room at the moment. with her moving out, we plan to move in to the bigger room and i think it's due time. really been wanting some space.

that's all for now. here's to my 1st blog!

JJ